i would now.

going to kbox with elaine tmr to rehearse for our duet item for the freshmen orientation's concert!
and im so freaking out here! ah im just getting the nerves and all!
i cant believe im doing this, i cant believe i actually got the guts and nerves to do this thing!
and i cant believe im going to SING in front of all the ogls, lecturers, sdn students, and FRESHMEN. oh my freakyhead! what if i really cant sing in front of all these people?

what if i faint and die on stage? what if i became a laughing sock of myself for another dreadful 2 years? what if my voice cracked while i was singing? what if im a burden to elaine's wonderful singing?
what if what if what if.
oh no , sorry elaine, im just way tooooo pessimistic here :/ but thanks for all the encouragement and assurance you had given me all this while . im still trying to get through this , at least, with a more open mind, and self actualization. i can do this, I HOPE.

i have never sang before with my SOLO voice in front of so many people. and nevertheless, a performance? on an arena facing people?
i only sing in showers, with close friends and WITH people singing WITH ME .

this is going to be a totally new experience and i really do hope its a good one. if not, i promise NEVER to sing or hum again . God Bless! Father, show me this is a right decision.