Felt as if.

I couldnt stand staying home, feeling all sick and lethargic on Boxing Day while everyone is out.
The air seems fresher out there, so i went out to take a breather by myself.

Walked, wrote songs, read, drew, music, from suntec to esplanade, seeking inspirations along the way. It was all worth my time despite a weak self.
For the first time, I couldnt feel a tinge of strongness.
While I was at the Esplanade Library reading, I was staring out of the glass panels into the sky, my vision wasn't as good, everything seems lighter in color than it should, and a little blurry, it was really cold then, I felt surges of heat in my body, my breath was weak and hot though my hands were really cold and numb.

And then it struck me, was that the feeling of near death?
I am perhaps, exaggerating too much, but I just couldnt help it but realised that.
Felt as if I was taking my last breath overlooking a spectacular view.
God, please heal me in the fastest time possible.