Sunday, September 27, 2009

Despondent.

Ive been feeling so lousy about myself lately.
Everything is just not going the way it should be.

Im not trying to be yet another emo kid, but frankly speaking, up to this point, i still breathe in the air of solitude, walk in the footsteps of a haunting silence, people are still revolving around me but im still unable to move.
Gee, talk about having a life.

Just whats going wrong?

My self esteem is sinking, and its always ending up in self pity
My confidence is faltering, but it has never been its optimum,
no one truly understands how i perceive things because they look at it differently,
Everyone is having a life they live it up but me,
Im drifting from God when i never was supposed to,
I neglected running and my fitness level is back to square one,
IVP is coming and im feeling so unfit,
ive been having odd dreams that i could interpret
someone stole the bicycle i bought together with wb
i work and work like there is no tommorow
im still lingering in the past
i feel dejected.

When everything is back to zero point, there is nothing you can turn to.

5 comments:

I can't tell said...

OH NO! dun be sad =) haha God will help u. i last time felt dam sucky as well. but yea dun worry u will ,make it through! God bless u!

weebee said...

wah so many things, you know whats the main reason? ITS BECAUSE YOU MISS ME LAH!

I can improve your fitness level! Just call me down I cycle you run :D

and err..walking ard with me might give you more confidence because you look prettier and slimmer lor! :D

and bicycle might come back because I'm a really lucky person ya, so my own luck will pass to you one!

and what solitude when you got me to sip teas and watch movie with!

Pre-Os said...

please don ever ever forget that life is great and that you have US, makes things even better :D wahha!

belle said...

hey gal. you can always count on us and even God. u're never alone! jus keep walkin til you see the light. sometimes in life we'll face a season of dryness. jus walk through it can get out of it ya? take care!

Pearlyn K said...

Thank you guys, really, thank you.