Amidst the seriousness.

Alright, so just as life was heading for the downturn, yesterday night lift it up a little.
Thankful for that, at least i wasn't feeling so lifeless.

Spinelli's store outing with my awesome colleagues at Minds Cafe, at the one opp Peace Centre.
Bobby Joe booked a table for all of us at 11pm so we got on to play till 2am or so.
We had a blasting wild time, playing taboo, Repeat pete and all sorts of games that requires a zest of energy, lots of hearty laughter, courage for all that embarrasing actions and humor!

And i love it all, including the company of course. its one of the rare times where you get to see everyone's other side.

Oh, me and eva went for a drink with Shimin at Mr Bean's Cafe as well which was just opp Minds'. Got a bottle of white wine and i got literally persuaded by Shimin to drink at least one and a half glasses of it. Kinda sweet and a tad sour for alcohol but still, i personally do not appreciate wine at all. Me and eva washed it down with gulps of iced water.

Met up with some of our prev spinelli friends as well , they had some rounds of drinks at Alps bar and then we headed on to Minds' by 11pm.

Photos will definitely be up once i get hold of those. Await.

goodness gracious, i cant get to sleep yet.
the 12 hours i slept through last night was a boost.

Right now, after working for like 9 hours, im still wide awake.
Still chewing on gum, listening to Taylor Swift's, figuring out some guitar chords, socialising on msn and still thinking bout how life still sucks.

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Despondent.

Ive been feeling so lousy about myself lately.
Everything is just not going the way it should be.

Im not trying to be yet another emo kid, but frankly speaking, up to this point, i still breathe in the air of solitude, walk in the footsteps of a haunting silence, people are still revolving around me but im still unable to move.
Gee, talk about having a life.

Just whats going wrong?

My self esteem is sinking, and its always ending up in self pity
My confidence is faltering, but it has never been its optimum,
no one truly understands how i perceive things because they look at it differently,
Everyone is having a life they live it up but me,
Im drifting from God when i never was supposed to,
I neglected running and my fitness level is back to square one,
IVP is coming and im feeling so unfit,
ive been having odd dreams that i could interpret
someone stole the bicycle i bought together with wb
i work and work like there is no tommorow
im still lingering in the past
i feel dejected.

When everything is back to zero point, there is nothing you can turn to.

Sometimes, we realised we are alone.

Today, just like any other day, its just me and the sound of my footsteps.

I walked up steadily this winding uphill slope everyday home. Every night as i walked up, the overhead lamp would shine down upon me, casting its glow on my silhouette, i would watch my shadows, hear my breathing, quicken my pace, determined to reach home as soon as possible.

Some nights are different. I would take time to slow down, contemplate, and remember how small i really am in this world.

Im nobody worth remembering, but my value encompasses how much im worth.

I asked myself while i strolled up tonight, " Do you have a life? Why are you standing here alone again?"

Finally, IAP has come to an end.
We are freed.

Looking back, i still feel useless.
Whatever i did what i ought to do or not, ive still got no direction.

but in any other case, goodbye to STAero FOREVER.

Forget yourselves long enough to lend a helping hand.

This is what it means to 'lose your life'- forgetting yourself in service to others.
When was the last time you emptied yourself for someone else's benefit?
It's only when we forget ourselves that we do the things that deserve to be remembered.

Often enough, a lot of our service is self-serving.

So, Ask yourself this, 'Am i usually more concerned about being served or finding ways to serve others?'