i would now.

This year's :)

2011-11-14T19:43:00.001-08:00

Hi 2 Timothy

ACS Carnival 4!

2011-11-14T19:21:00.001-08:00

My first carnival in ACS Barker and probably the last.

Famous Amigos, yes we sold everything, well done 2Samuel :)

and not forgetting the epic dunking.

i'll not forget this, in a long time.

Open Door Policy.

2011-11-09T08:48:00.001-08:00

And yes, that is the name of the restaurant and cafe that me and chloe visited tonight for dinner.

Oh the delightful pan seared salmon, four bean 'blah blah something' brushetta, lime panna cotta dessert that we all shared and we had piccolo lattes too!

Costly, but cooked to perfection. It's a once in a lifetime indulgence:)

Halloweentown

2011-11-07T19:13:00.001-08:00

We celebrate Halloween this year right at the heart of Clarke Quay.

Ghouls, witches, mummies, cartoons, killer smiles, blood and gore, manga characters, name em and you will find em in every corner of clarke quay and yes, that was how crazy it was to be celebrated.

Settled for beer market and here we are!

All's good,

2011-11-07T18:55:00.000-08:00

Just reminiscing the good ol' times.

Here's to one year of restoring friendships and me knowing who you really are.

A toast of baileys!

uh huh

2011-10-17T17:00:00.001-07:00

2011-07-11T08:49:00.000-07:00

2011-05-15T07:00:00.000-07:00

And when I first showed him my scar, he said it was interesting. He used the word "textured". He said "smooth" was boring but "textured" was interesting, and the scar meant that I was stronger than whatever it was that had tried to hurt me.

Blown away by,

2011-04-12T20:04:00.000-07:00

and there we were.

Thank You guys, you were amazing.

2011-04-11T22:01:00.000-07:00

I'm proud of myself yet again. Breakfast on a Tuesday: Runny eggs, Jam on Toast

Renovation works of Spinelli @ China Sq.

2011-04-11T21:37:00.000-07:00

Before: After:

okay you can't actually see much difference in this picture, minor changes here and there, no more work hazards at the very least, more storage spaces but smaller sinks.

For the rest, you'll actually have to come down to see it for yourself!

Happy 24th shimin.

2011-04-08T21:30:00.000-07:00

Happy 24th Birthday to my dearest friend and colleague, Shimin. Have a blessed one with less alcohol please :D

Recent Randoms.

2011-04-05T06:44:00.000-07:00

These are the went to(s) the past week which Ive captured in my iphone. Went to Raindrops cafe @ scape with chlo for a fruit beer.

Went to The Merry Men @ Robertson Quay with chlo and sam and we drank 2 shots each of PB Jelly goodness as so they said, it tasted as if we just wolfed down a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. Sweet, tantalising, extraordinary without overdoing it.

Went to work @ Spinelli's the next morning still feeling alive. And yes, look at the beautiful array of cakes we had that day! All filled up, all fresh.

Went to Cold Storage as instructed by Didi and got these amazing green Pringles. yes its Green! and its seaweed flavoured and they were awesomely addictive. Shit snakes.

What.a.week.

Hi, and this is my dad.

2011-03-23T08:47:00.000-07:00

And, he is sleeping like a log.
Of all places, on the armchair, dozing off while reading papers, and watching football.
My dad is adorable.

2011-03-17T19:59:00.000-07:00

An apple affair.

oh, honey.

2011-03-02T07:44:00.000-08:00

oh, honey, streaks of honey
drizzles of honey, mixture of gold
oh honey, streaks of honey
i'd spread you on bread and dough

oh honey, lemon honey
you are perfect for my inflammed throat
oh honey, sweet sweet honey
you are perfect for my yoghurt served cold

oh honey, maple honey
you sure know how to start my day
oh honey, streaks of honey
drizzles of honey, sweet and gold.

Thankful for,

2011-02-24T08:23:00.000-08:00

you.
for waiting for me for close to 2 hours in school while im at the crematorium.
for getting me that carrot cupcake :D
for taking leave to attend the critique and only to attend the juniors' last few presentations
for coming all the way to NYP
for trusting me to be your listening ear
for hearing me out as well
for watami's and all things delicious
for the usual cafe moments at coffee club
for reminding me to be me
and for, being you as you.

thanks mimi <3

2011-02-15T10:01:00.000-08:00

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel
like you're nothing You're f*ckin' perfect to me

You're so mean,
when you talk about yourself,
you were wrong
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead

So complicated, look happy, you'll make it
Filled with so much hatred
such a tired game
It's enough
I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons,
I've seen you do the same

Oh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line, and we try try try,
but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time

Why do we do that? Why do I do that? Why do I do that..?

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me.

F*ckin perfect - Pink

2011-02-13T21:31:00.000-08:00

and there I was,
staring out of the tinted glass windows
seated silently
among this stale air i dwell

wishing i wasn't so helpless
wishing i didn't have to appear strong
that i could just open up
since you knew something was definitely wrong.

Thanks, Taylor.

2011-02-09T20:26:00.000-08:00

I can't say no more than Thanks, Taylor.
For burning a big hole in my pocket for your live concert right here in Singapore.
Yet,
being more than awesome on stage, making us honoured to be your first ever stopover on your world tour. Good luck with the 80 over countries left, cause I am so damn sure they will feel the same way as I did, watching you perform with that much zest and sincerity, you sure know how to touch our hearts with each and every soulful song you've composed so wholeheartedly.

So thanks, for not only being upclosed to us with your ukulele and guitar but,

for making us anticipate and all excited
for making us feel like heartbreak is just part of growing up
for making us feel that we should go about doing things that we will never regret
for making us feel that love can be that enchanting
for making us feel that we should never let go of our dreams
for making us feel that should always speak now.

Thursdays with Tiger.

2011-02-09T20:16:00.000-08:00

I am in love with tiger biscuits dipped in milo.
Comfort baby food with biscuits being all soaked and soft after dipping it in milo. Ultimate.

Everything almost "T"here.

2011-02-08T07:20:00.000-08:00

awfully Thankful for Tuesdays.
cause everything seems to start coincidentally with the letter "T" today.

Thank God,
`Elaine allowed me to work on Thursday instead of today. Had to rush to make payment for NCAP theory course since there's no other days avaliable to pay.
` Tuna sandwiches
` Sister Talk with my sister
` getting all pumped up for Taylor's concert Tomorrow.
` Tiger biscuits dipped in Milo
` a nice long walk
` a short run
` Tablet of Redoxon vitamin
` Trusty pair of shoes
` The way to SSC and figuring it all out by trusting my instincts
` Quick process of payment for NCAP
` Iced coffee
` Theory notes for BEC
` Total Focus to study
` Gum
` Bread
` Nuggets
` Water
` Uni applications. Im crossing my fingers on this.

and now, i shall just anticipate for Taylor and more Taylor.
I realised im actually not obssessed with her, Just her music and her songwriting and how she places all those heartfelt emotions into each and every of her songs. Its amazing how a young woman can do all that.
I am inspired.

Monday mornings.

2011-02-06T18:40:00.000-08:00

Adapting to the weather here again in Singapore after just 3 days in Genting.
But all's good, warm and nice. not cold and dry.
It's always comforting to see the sun rays shining through my windows and casting its light upon my blankets when I wake up in the morning.

Its even better when my sis woke up as early as I did, and so I cooked mushroom instant noodles for her.
Today, Im all thankful for,

Peanut butter sandwiches
Earl Grey Tea
Hello Panda biscuits
a piece of mochi thingy
Phineas and Ferb on disney channel
the ability to focus on studying for BEC last night and today as well
Season of the Witch movie
Meeting up with friends
a nice short swim
the sun
Gum
and the anticipation for Taylor's concert, 2 more days!
and she's already here in Singapore.

There's a reason to smile even more now!

it sucks to know

2011-02-02T07:29:00.000-08:00

Its chinese new year again, in an instant, and I am completely in denial about it.
the worst thing comes when I feel damn lousy about myself.
Yet again.

I am not sure if its about my self esteem or am I just being too conscious about myself but heck, it sucks to know that I think I suck.

Have been feeling not myself at all recently,
I feel fat. no offence, but for a runner enthusiast like me, not running for a week and sucking at it after starting it again felt like I have not trained for a month or so.
I feel plumper, heavier, and bloated. And no thanks to CNY, Feb is gonna be a Flab month unless I work my way out.
No thanks to my sister either, her loss of appetite recently,and nausea makes me feel like im eating so much more than her. My already slim and taller sister is not eating and here I am gorging myself. So thanks, thanks a whole lot.

My skin is dry. Okay it has been always like that so I am not going to complain about this. I have been putting more moisturiser, so hopefully it works.

I am damn afraid of acne breakouts. So am still praying hard it will not happen, at least not this new year.

I have acne scars from my past puberty breakouts. I have got absolutely no money to get rid of those, and I think I would rather use the money for something else. But somehow when I feel lousy about myself, all these thoughts start sinking it when I thought I don't really bother.

I have stout, dark and muscular thighs. Oh well, used to them but its a loss of female traits.
In exchange for athletic performance which I dont perform very well either.

And I think I have slightly broader shoulders.

Ah why is this new year so hard to walk through?
Dear God, if you are reading this and understanding my fears, tell me what I should do and how I could just prevent this whole mindset from affecting me and my self image.

a day of visual merchandising @ sentosa

2011-01-31T06:54:00.000-08:00

Did up some signages, price indication tags, templates, laminating and trimming today.
Was kept occupied the entire day, and time travelled faster.
Did Shopfront display as well at the Images Of Singapore!

Here is our retail graphic/product designer, Elaine, putting up the props.

when was the last time you've been to Images Of Singapore? haha it has been years since i stepped here.

Childhood treats.

2011-01-30T07:53:00.000-08:00

now, those were the days.

Cooking up a storm. Or not.

2011-01-26T19:41:00.000-08:00

I managed to find an opportunity to cook lunch for myself again.
Found some simple ingredients and some yellow mee in the refrigerator from Tuesday's dinner and vio-la! whipped up some fried mushroom noodles.

Pretty nutritious I'd say, except for the yellow mee, dont really fancy that but that was the only form of noodle I can find.

Ingredients:

` Mushrooms of all sorts, Shitake, Button and those used in steamboat or sukiyaki, forgot what are those called.

` Yellow mee

` Green leafy vegetables

` An egg

` A dash of salt and pepper

` A spoonful of chilli sauce

` Olive Oil

Boil the yellow mee, mushrooms and vegetables first, soften them and then drain them out.

Heat the frying pan thereafter, adding olive oil and fry the egg first!

Then throw everything else including the noodles and ingredients.

Fry them all together with salt, pepper and the chilli and there you have it.

Simple awesome lunch :D

2011-01-20T01:46:00.000-08:00

I can't agree more.

a little anguish will do you some good.

2011-01-20T01:44:00.000-08:00

by the way, im not being emo.
Im just doing some self reflections on life in general.

True.

2011-01-11T07:07:00.000-08:00

2011-01-11T02:34:00.000-08:00

because,
gummy bears make me happy.

bought a packet of these little darlings, and they were my niblets at work.
tiny bite-sized chewy sweet little bears, they are the drugs for joy :)
and i dont care if im gonna have a round tummy like those bears if ive an overdose of it, i can always do more core.

say Wow.

2011-01-11T02:18:00.000-08:00

this pair of running shoes is to die for.
Asics Gel Kayano 16, i think.

So,

2011-01-03T08:06:00.000-08:00

have you made your 2011 resolutions?

Hug Your Sorrows.

2010-12-27T18:33:00.000-08:00

omg i'd kill for these.
Hug your sorrows series, big salty tears of joy in coin purses!
Chlo got me one for Christmas :)

Felt as if.

2010-12-26T05:08:00.000-08:00

I couldnt stand staying home, feeling all sick and lethargic on Boxing Day while everyone is out.
The air seems fresher out there, so i went out to take a breather by myself.

Walked, wrote songs, read, drew, music, from suntec to esplanade, seeking inspirations along the way. It was all worth my time despite a weak self.
For the first time, I couldnt feel a tinge of strongness.
While I was at the Esplanade Library reading, I was staring out of the glass panels into the sky, my vision wasn't as good, everything seems lighter in color than it should, and a little blurry, it was really cold then, I felt surges of heat in my body, my breath was weak and hot though my hands were really cold and numb.

And then it struck me, was that the feeling of near death?
I am perhaps, exaggerating too much, but I just couldnt help it but realised that.
Felt as if I was taking my last breath overlooking a spectacular view.
God, please heal me in the fastest time possible.

Christmas Eve at Timbre's.

2010-12-26T04:57:00.000-08:00

Suddenly I just felt like blogging continously in one whole shot, my fingers are feeling nimble tonight and I am home early!
Anyway, Christmas Eve was pretty simple yet heartwarming.

You'll not believe this, except for those who knows what I do so often,
yes, went to school for training despite the cough at close to 10am in the morning!
Trained with the long d girls, did a little running and lunges, and had a game or two of frisbee and football. I then cancelled giving tuition to Elijah though, I cant be spreading my cough to a young kid :/

Went home for a quick rest and then off to Timbre @ Mt Sophia's for a Christmas dinner with my very awesome bunch of sec school mates. As usual, we waited ridiculously long to get 14 seats, couldnt make any reservations for that day so we had to do a walk-in.

Loved the live band, loved her vocals, loved the buffalo wings though it was really spicy, loved the company and we counted down to Christmas when the clock struck midnight and exchanged gifts.
Everyone was tired after that, but we all had fun I am sure. Thanks Ken, for driving us home :) and thanks yw and chlo for the gifts:)

<3 Chlo got me the gift I wanted so badly! It was really a tear of joy, and the awesomest gift indeed.
Blessed Christmas to all.

Feast on.

2010-12-26T04:14:00.000-08:00

There is no doubt, that every Christmas, besides the jolly merry making, the wines and cocktails, the gingerbread, the candy canes, the christmas trees, the reds and greens, the gifts and the giving, santas and sleighs, churches and prayers, carols and snow ( ha i wish), there is always a whole LOT of good food for the season.

Turkeys, Deli meats, Ham, Steaks, Roasted chicken, puddings and all sorts of gourmet dinners.
I had ala carte actually, ranging from Japanese to Western.
However with a bout of flu and phlegm haunting me this merry season, I didnt quite enjoyed my feasts :( and yes, what a wonderful gift I've got for Christmas.

Dinner with mimi was good though, that was before i got sick.
She brought me to some jap buffet at The Heeren. Kiseki's, wide variety with fresh sashimi, soba, yaki udon, omelette, sushi and handrolls, salad bar, teppanyaki, etc and sweet desserts at $35 nett per person for Dinner.

you can imagine how full we were thereafter.
these are some of what we had,

and yes, went to the HippoBus thing with my family organised by Safra to view the Christmas Lightings at Orchard Road upclose. It was a rooftop bus so everything was awesomely visibly clear. The bus took us from Mt Faber all the way to Singapore Flyer and back, passing by Orchard so we could all take pictures.

But christmas just doesnt feel the same this year. Without the christmas stomp, without performing for church, without this and that. Its just not the same.

2010-12-13T08:26:00.000-08:00

i love running in the night, just by the sea, with the wind brushing against my hair, the salty smell of the sea i breathe in, tuning into the ipod, beads of perspiration, continuous pacing and passing by the beautiful light casted upon the sea.
Its just the light and me.
Enchanting.

Back from a one night family chalet. Seemingly a getaway, but for me, it was just a good way to gather, spoil ourselves with some bbq food, and make some noise.
So awesomely thankful for,
` the chalet in all
` families
` laughter
` food
` guitar
` being able to swim in the lap pool in the drizzle
` iced coffee ( to think i had quit coffee)
` reading and revising
` making plans for cell x'mas party
` x'mas presents from aunt vivian and yiyi
` a night jog at pasir ris park
` home :D

2010-12-02T04:40:00.000-08:00

I'd fly off with the flock, away from you, if I could.

A day in JB with Chlo.

2010-11-25T07:39:00.000-08:00

First experience taking the SBS transit bus to Woodlands Checkpoint and then taking the same one into Johore Bahru.
It was a really interesting short day trip to CitySquare mall, in JB, just wandering around, shopping for some stuff though we got really tired of it, watched a Walt Disney flick, Rapunzel which was yet another typical fairytale with the royalty, the villians and happy endings.

Had brunch at Old Town White Coffee, got some tantalising japanese little snacks, some gum and then took the bus back to Singapore.
Rainy day, but lazy yet adventurous.

Can't wait for Universal Studios tmrw!

2010-11-23T07:33:00.000-08:00

Today, Im thankful for,
` waking up at 10plus and refreshed for work
` lunch slam
` green tea
` trying out the new gingerbread spin
` a fast and swift closing with boss haha
` leftover falafel wrap
` peanut butter slice
` my gum
` mum's advice on my upcoming one day trip to JB with chlo
` my passport

and on a shorter note, i cant wait for christmas!
though it wouldnt be the same as the last, without Christmas Stomp for church and all, but im hoping this year would still be a merry one.

So thankful.

2010-11-20T09:19:00.000-08:00

For people like you who knows the right things to say at the exact time I needed to hear.
Thanks mimi.
Awesome apple vodka and jello freeze tonight at yello jello's.
What else can be better than a saturday night, meeting up your wonderful friends, and having a drink or two with a live band playing and songs that rip your hearts.

And so, today, Im really thankful for:
` eva not minding that Im late, AGAIN for work.
` decorating Spinelli with the christmasy stuff we have
` D.I.Y handicrafts
` having the thought we probably won Best decorated Spins for christmas
` boss coming back to work to help us out
` banana walnut bread
` Earl Grey Tea Latte on soy
` Almond Biscotti
` Huiqin coming to visit me at work! thanks for dropping by though you took a risk in that :D
` long conversations with her
` a planned outing to Dempsey with her
` good weather after the downpour
` the white dress mum bought for me
` mimi's company and engaging conversations
` yello jello's live band
` strong facade of myself
` apple vodka
` Nicholas's appearance to send mimi back safely
` Ice cream in the freezer ( like I wasnt cold enough haha)

I need to get the vibe back for cell.

Of books and beers on a day like this.

2010-11-17T09:50:00.000-08:00

We've decided on KL as a destination for our getaway instead. Bintan is awesome, but now with the Monsoon season, i guess it isnt such a great idea after all.

Blessed with nice breezy weather on a Wednesday afternoon.
Went to Ann Siang Hill with Chlo, all time favourite hang-out.

Wanted to try out Kki's cakes but they were all sold out.

And so, we headed to Shots' instead. Chlo had her lava cake to satisfy her sweet tooth and i had Iced English Breakfast Tea. Black and Pink themed cafe and pristine washrooms, appreciated.

Met Sam who booked out last night from camp, went to Orchard Central for Quiznos Subs and then to Cuppage's for a drink or two. Talked about life, and yes, as usual, digged up happenings from each other and merry making haha, Sam is right, after a whole day like this or any other day out, when we reached home, are we really truly happy about what went on earlier or even the past week when we were caught up with other things?

The last thing i wanted to do, was to dwell in my own thoughts and drift off somewhere again.

Starting my day off with

2010-11-14T19:09:00.000-08:00

Breakfast to kick start Monday! Country Grain Toast with Peanut Butter and Sliced bananas.

half an Oatmeal Raisin cookie.

Need the carbos for training later.

Just earlier, im thankful for:

` waking up at 10am, have been waking up too early the past week for work.

` off day from Spins!

` a good breakfast

` a walk downstairs to the market with sis

` facebook

` the seashell my aunt got me from China( i could hear the waves crashing upon the shore)

` Music from my speakers

` Rice crackers

` Sherbet lemons

Breakfast at Kith's

2010-11-11T07:38:00.000-08:00

Woke up for a good, pretty hearty breakfast with Chlo at Kith's, a little sidewalk cafe along Robertson Quay. Man, how much i love that place.
Had Toast with Homemade strawberry jam, and an Earl Grey Lavender Iced Tea that speaks flavourful and bliss.
Chlo had Roast chicken thigh sandwich with sauteed mushrooms.

Im in love with their cafe concept. Simple, Minimal, Life.

2010-11-07T07:48:00.000-08:00

Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we’ve been and what we’ve overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That’s what we like to think. But that’s not the way it is, is it? Somethings we’d just have to learn over and over and over again.

2010-11-06T09:25:00.000-07:00

it has been a hectic week working 2 crazy mornings at Spin's.
With so many deliveries and coffee orders in the morning, we got slammed at the barista's workstation.
But still, am still going strong.
Im working mornings for 3 days the coming week, God bless.

2010-10-26T07:57:00.000-07:00

Today, im thankful for,
`waking up before 10am
`having enough time to prepare for work
`chewy candies
`unlimited beverages while working
`slamming at bar (i simply love the thrill when its busy)
`boss to help with closing
`the many wastages to bring back home
`potato and chicken salad
`salmon
`half a chicken sandwich
`half a waffle
`a new hair comb
`strawberries and grapes
`anticipation for halloween

Weary yet accomplished Sunday.

2010-10-24T08:17:00.000-07:00

I kind of like running on Sunday mornings. It is a beautiful thing to do to end the week and embrace the new week ahead.

I replaced a track and field junior of mine for her Nike City Run that she signed up for since she couldnt make it due to IVP which happens in the afternoon. It was all good, completed, target reached, without any pain or any fatigue. The haze was more or less cleared, and I thank God for giving me strength and constant faith to push myself on.

And thus, today im thankful for,
` an opportunity to run another 10k race by Nike
` no relapse of shin splint
` clear skies and fine weather
` meeting kevin and some of the other track alumni and knowing that im not alone to start off.
` meeting Sze Ying at the baggage counter area aft not seeing her for sometime
` 100 plus and mineral water
` cell meeting
` prayers
` Devotional assignment, makes me motivated to do Quiet Time.
` making time to go down to Gombak Stadium to support the athletes for their IVP.
` watching them run their best and making me proud of em'.
` the girls' concern over my exhausted face
` every athlete's strong willpower
` Popiah
` another little get-together after IVP
` mum's ever so fantastic Spaghetti Bolongese
` Fish fillet with lemon
` Potato Wedges
` Rice Crisps
` Snapple Grapeade

What a huge dinner after a long day.

A friday affair.

2010-10-22T09:48:00.000-07:00

I actually don't look foward to Fridays because there is absolutely nothing to look foward to.
But today seems different.

Besides training, there is dinner, yet another awesome bunch of trackers for company, an inspirational movie screening thereafter and friendly msn conversations.

And of course, another list of things to be thankful for on this beautiful Friday:

` waking up at 11 cause its an off-day from work
` soya bread
` strawberry yogurette stick
` apples and papayas
` bread with marmalade
` reduced haze i think?
` time
` a nice leisure swim
` hydro with my awesome long D mates
` frisbee in the water
` mc chicken
` laughter
` music by glee!
` that inspirational movie screening
` stroll with john and gab towards yck station
` snapple apple
` iphone
` Zamree's always-very-nice compliments in facebook.
` encouragement

2010-10-21T09:46:00.000-07:00

I wish Ive got a huge vacuum to suck up all this bad air right now.

back to blogging?

2010-10-21T09:39:00.000-07:00

After getting a temporary usb keyboard, I dont know why Ive got this urge to continue blogging again. Havent been updating for quite some time, guess ive been busy with life.
Hah, life. Wondering if I even have one?
Ive got a few friends frequently asking me,' how's life?' out of courtesy.
However, I really detest replying that question.
Its like asking me ' So how many times do you go to the toilet a day?'

Its unpredictable and it probably could be the same too.
Life. Well im still living everyday like it is, probably a different routine. Or probably the same one. We never know, do we?

I need a change.
Or a life re-adjustment.

2010-10-21T09:21:00.000-07:00

The haze is really getting in the way.
of everything.
of the health of people, of dehydration, of the already polluted air, of the upcoming IVP, of the performances of the athletes, of the Nike Run, of people on the streets.
Why is this even happening? Sigh, Sumatra fires.

On a lighter note, im gonna be thankful for a couple of things everyday. Wouldnt want to always be that downcasted and be in the dumps. There are still plentiful of things to look foward to!

Today, im thankful for,
` my colleagues at Spins'
` corn pudding by didi
` leftover pasta salad
` shimin's invitation to her graduation party
` quiet persistence
` God's grace
` Time
` Brisk walking pace to Liang court after work
` finally, a usb keyboard for temporary use
` genuine concern
` mum's encouragement over job finding yet still pressured:/
` cinnamon swirl bread
` apple crumble
` new songs

Lunch.

2010-09-23T09:09:00.000-07:00

Finally, i cooked a decent lunch for myself, after donkey years.
Sliced apples and Egg Vermicelli.

Cashews.

2010-09-20T09:28:00.000-07:00

Cashews.
Such comfort foods.
And belly blasting snacks.

ck and gerald.

2010-08-23T11:19:00.000-07:00

my 2 very lovely friends. Thanks for the belated celebration and a time for us to just catch up with one another and just talk to our hearts content, and yes, not to mention, eating to our fill as well.

I really really cant explain how much i appreciate and treasure the short span of time we have together , knowing each other's schedules and worklife and how its gonna be even more difficult to meet up again next time when we all start school and gerald having to go to serve NS.
Gonna miss you guys, and i look foward to the next time we could just hang out together.

Met up with ck at Scape* for lunch at Sakae, and yes buffet! No and i didnt had 5 mini bowls of cha soba this time, it was a mixture of sushi, soba and miso. Wondering if we could eat at another jap concept restaurant the next time round. but anyway, all was good.
The dear girl got me an adidas windbreaker as well, thanks, its gonna come in handy!

Went off at 5 in the rain, yes there was this sudden downpour, and it got so heavy. Headed back, while she went off to give her students tuition.
Met up with Gerald at yes, cine again! haha okay i combed the whole stretch of somerset today.
looking back, it was indeed a very long day at the heart of orchard.
Had dinner at Hot tomato express's at 313, and then went on to catch Inception, finally. Didnt know of any other movies to watch, and this seemed pretty interesting considering the good reviews it received.

My mind was very much in a whirl after that, but we managed to decipher everything about the movie eventually. Awesome scenarios of how dreams and inceptions play tricks on the mind while we are all asleep in reality.

Well, long day, but im so glad it was long having the chance to meet up with my best friends. All worth it, the weather and the time.

managed to take some pictures of what we had at Hot Tomato's,

I had Rosemary chicken while gerald had Mixed Seafood Grill. All zesty for our tastebuds.

I just wanna thank

2010-08-17T22:49:00.000-07:00

you , you and YOU.
Thanks to all who had made my 20th very special, all sorts of surprises from different circles of friends and all the facebook well wishes! They are all so sweet.
I totally didnt expect it, but really, turning 20 wasn't as bad as i thought after all.

Had celebrations held over a span of 6 days consecutively i think, and i still have a few more with a few buddies who had went to Tioman, and now that they are back, its time for some catch up.
I miss you gerald and crankynuts and I look foward to seeing you people again.

Family, Church friends, Cell, Track mates, Facebook, BM friends, Spins' friends, Girlfriends, Poly mates and Friends from everywhere and anywhere, I really truly appreciate each and everyone of you and I thank God for giving me friends like you.

Sometimes.

2010-07-29T22:15:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I get overwhelmed with life and all of its details. Sometimes it seems like I just don’t have enough… not enough time, or money, or energy, or life to give. Sometimes I feel like everyone and everything is pulling at all of my strings, and I’m slowly unraveling. I want to scream out, I want to curl up in a ball, I want to wrap my arms around myself and hold myself together.

-poco cocoa.

was good while it lasted.

2010-07-26T20:10:00.000-07:00

well, looks like everything is coming to an end now.
it all still seems so vivid as if i just started out at work at Cityneon yesterday.
3 months up, and tomorrow is my last day.

it has been all good working on site at the Youth Olympic Village at NTU alongside with fellow colleagues.
Learnt practical things, gained experience, improved skills, everybody working hard together, laughter, and more.
I never thought i'd say this, but i actually enjoy working with this bunch at YOV, considering the fact ive been complaining about work in the office back there at Genting Lane.
Unfortunately, now that im getting the hang of it and is adapting well, ive got to leave.

Thankful for all the guidance, and for my really wonderful colleagues.
working for the youth olympics has been a really good opportunity.

and now that i will reminisce the campus of YOV.

and being satisfied seeing the design of the VMAC office ive did 3d modelling on.

site creations.

if i could stay as i am.

2010-07-15T22:31:00.000-07:00

If i could stay as i am, and not challenge myself to be someone else i am not.
I was back to being me again last weekend, it was a wild one.
Drinking with friends on Friday night, till the wee hours of the morning,
giddy spells and hangovers, im so relieved i managed to still get a grip of myself.

No more Flamings please.

And then with just a mere 2 hours of sleep, I was up on my feet, to meet the girls and CJ for a little cycling expedition at Pulau ubin.
All was good, except that it was little for me as I didnt cycle the whole of ubin, had to leave the island at 1plus for Spinelli's. and the rest were still there, gosh they are such adventurers.

Wished i had experienced the mud and the breathtaking sceneries they saw too!
CJ says she is gonna probably have this cycling thing every month, so there is still many more opportunities i hope.

And then on Sunday..let me see, oh it was dad's birthday! Got him a Liverpool polo tee and well, he looks happy with it.
We had Jack's place, and then again, i rushed off to take the shuttle bus to RWS, and then to the beach station to meet the trackers for some fun in the sun.

Brought guitar, jammed with the jumpers, sang till our voices cracked, swam in the open sea, got tanned but my skin was sun absorbent by then, left footprints in the sand, laughter, and more.
Ended the day with dinner at grandmere's.

Weekends, i really do wished they were longer. And at least, i could continue being me.

for Touch.

2010-07-12T08:34:00.000-07:00

it only takes a spark to get the fire going.

Design for Siying, for her school project, supposedly a mural for Touch Community.

Max Brenner, Marina Bay Sands, Esplanade

2010-07-02T09:12:00.000-07:00

Friday night was one hell of a ride.
it felt so good to spent friday nights like that after a long week at work.

oh pudding! thanks for bringing me to the Helix!
and Max Brenner's , chocolate by the bald man is so good, its really pleasure just savouring chocolate. We had chocolate soup! with some ingredients that look like Red Bean soup thereafter.
Esplande outdoor theatre had some concerts going on as usual , local band scenes, one talented bunch of musicians. The Lion story was there again.

Great night. have only got one thing to say , TGIF!

40 days.

2010-06-30T21:00:00.000-07:00

Bring it on.
The 40 days of faith starts now in the city of God.
Now till August 9.

This week: Acts 18

looking out.

2010-06-30T09:40:00.000-07:00

This was taken on Monday at work.
its again, me and the drawings.
stumbling upon the money plants outside again, recalling what celine said about the plants growing dollar bills, overlooking the vast greenery outside and hoping i could be outdoors instead.
Raisins as snacks, Corn Loaf for breakfast, slogging, deadlines to meet.

Happy belated 21st dearest mimi.

2010-06-25T08:25:00.000-07:00

Happy belated birthday once again mimi,

For that sushi dinner, for that first experience in Orchard Central, for the time we met each other again, for the time we have endless topics to share, for the time you poked me again, for the time we had tea and ice cream together, for the time we could both speak to Romeo in Oriole, for the time we could really sit down and contemplate, for the time we could laugh at anything, for the time we could look back and think how silly we were, for the time we could sign up for dance classes together, for the time we anticipate dancing on sunday from now on, for the time im blogging this, im thankful for you and for God's plan in making us such good friends today.

Be blessed.

2010-06-24T10:00:00.001-07:00

i will be carrying upon this myself,
cause im selfish.

i will be weighing myself down,
cause i never wanted to impose on others.

i will be awaiting for a much brighter light
to lift me up from this well

i will be taking it in my stride
knowing that i can come out of this somehow.

The people around me are living a life of their own, yet they are stretching out their hands
im greatly touched by this fact, cause im reminded i will never walk alone.
For now, i'd just close my eyes and feel the breeze rushing through my hair
i will be standing here alone , wishing that i never had to care.

Thanks Fei.

2010-06-22T09:40:00.000-07:00

Catching up with you guys last sun was good.
it has been 3 years, long isnt it? Making coffee together, talking about everything with each other, all has been wonderful.
Thanks fei, for the kfc treat, we love it.
It tasted especially good when its eaten with you guys.

I will be waiting to meet up with you again.
and on a sidetrack, i love fei's hair and shimin's new eyes!

Hectic yet perfectly made.

2010-06-20T20:06:00.000-07:00

Rushing throughout the whole of Sunday but all is good, hectic yet everything seemed to fall in place.

0700, Thomson CC for the 7k race.
and finished in 7th place.
It was the first time it didnt felt like a race at all, probably because there were not many runners, and its more like a homely affair rather than a big one where every singaporean knows.

Everyone did well, am proud of the girls, they completed the run, its their first 7k.
more to come for them, and more for them to glorify.

Trusty trainers, missing Asics.
Made it in time for sermon, but missed out on Paradise Band Worship! oh well.
Rushed to Chinatown thereafter for a dim sum lunch in celebration of Fathers' Day.
I love you dad.

Afterwards it was vivo with sis, enjoyed each other's company.
Glad i brought my camera out, gonna make full use of it now.

Did all I desire to do most in one day, how fulfilling.

Gorgeous.

2010-06-17T22:31:00.000-07:00

Apart from dogs and kittens, what else can be more gorgeous than this?

Weekend camp.

2010-06-16T02:22:00.000-07:00

Track and Field camp last weekend was awesome though it was just a night spent there, for me at least.
Bonded.
captain's ball, waterpolo literally, ate, danced, cheered, sang, watched a gory film, cards, talked, performed, forfeit, played, climbed, conquered, raced together.

Seriously, at that point of time, i didnt felt a wee bit of being an alumni.

Leah's

2010-06-16T02:20:00.000-07:00

Leah said,
So true. Thanks.

on who i really am.

2010-06-14T23:38:00.000-07:00

I was reading up on my all-time favourite blogs at work, as usual whilst I'm free.
I love how they inspire me, make me think deep, make me stronger as a woman, make me live and love life and make me rise up after I fall.

Just hours ago, I came across a wonderful post that set me thinking on who I really am.
It is generally about women written by a great woman.

Maryanne Comaroto states,

"What if you just let go? Let it all go? All your attachments: your life as you know it, your identity, what you think of other people, of what other people think of you? Any and all ideas you have about who you are, what is and how it supposed to be, vanishing in the distance as you voluntarily let them go?

The stories about your childhood, about the person who cut you off in the parking lot, about “How come that person has more than me or isn’t as good?” Who did what to you, who didn’t do enough. Who owes you, who you need to avenge. How you are going to save the world, your child, the animals, yourself. What the government is doing—or not—and how you could do it better. What other people should be doing instead of what they are doing, and how obvious that is. What time you should get up, what time you should get to bed, eat lunch, color your roots, get rid of that old couch, that bad relationship. What if you let it go?

What if you stopped worrying about whether or not you should stop drinking Diet Coke, boycott Starbucks, and hurry, before the movie starts. About whether or not you're smarter, more evolved, more competent, a leader, are here to do something BIG, are special, entitled and privileged. That you’re a fast reader, a slow learner, have a powerful job, or are tired of being unemployed. That you’re sensitive, fragile, fierce, overwhelmed, overworked and underpaid, discriminated against—and if someone could just see who you really were, maybe you would believe it yourself.

That anyone knows what’s best for you, that it matters if you are loved, and that there is such a thing as a soul mate. That there is anywhere to get—but you had better get there before it’s gone, as there are only so many windows of opportunity. That anything is bad or good, positive or negative, hurry up, slow down, that there is such a thing as success and failure and that anyone’s life is anyone’s responsibility.

That everyone you know is struggling, many people you know are sick, a third of our nation is obese, times are tough, life is short, and that if you pray hard enough God will reward you instead of the three-hundred-thousand other people who just died in Haiti, write you a personal check and make it all better. That things are getting worse/looking up, the earth’s magnetic poles are shifting, and blue is the new black. That you have nothing to give up—and let that go, too.

What if you let all that go? Imagine it if you can, even for a moment. Go through the life you live right now and let it all go. Who would you be? "

now all that she says made her a even stronger and positive woman.

I perceive myself as independent, and I still think I am.
People do see me as one as well, i guess.
I don't like to share my feelings or anything related.
I still don't.

I am stubborn.
I am strong willed.
I drift away easily, yet even more determined to come back.
Sad to say, I often neglect people and life. But that is how I really am.

Women should be strong and confident. Women should be demure. And so instead of seeing myself for the beautiful person I really am, I only see all the ways I am not what I “should” be.
Who would I be then? To live a life I have.
who would I be if no one was watching? What would I like? What would I do every day, and who would I do it with?

There are still way too many things I can't let go of.

i want to

2010-06-11T00:50:00.000-07:00

2010-06-10T01:58:00.000-07:00

that is so true.
Was having lunch in the pantry when i saw this up the wall.

Edits.

2010-06-09T02:40:00.000-07:00

Wednesday at work.

Last minute project on NDP billboards 2010 thrown to me.
And ive only got 2 days to do up 3 designs.
it was hell.
inspirations, ideas and research, its so much like studio once again.

Did some drawings as usual, was fascinated with a bat i came across in the web.

Wore Jo's shoes, white, soft and a lil oversized.

Ran/Brisk-walked in the rain after getting lunch.
Did more edits thereafter.
Work.

Fruit crepes, hands on.

2010-06-07T00:32:00.000-07:00

Workplace Health Programme was introduced,
and we made healthy fruit crepes and Banana Nut Smoothie for that one hour.
Had a pretty good time with fellow colleagues!

when discouragement is actually an option.

2010-06-06T05:51:00.000-07:00

Free-fall.
when Discouragement opens to all.

How often do we actually feel discouraged?
When we are down and about, when we have no direction, when we are wandering aimlessly, when we have lost all hope, when we have lost all courage, when we are criticised, when we procrastinate, when we think that we don't even exist, and most importantly, when we gave up what we took to heart.
and when all these elements come upon us, I'd rather free fall.

Why linger on when Discouragement is actually all along a choice?

Grateful to Pastor for bringing up this today, i now have a remedy to it.
Rest. Recognize. Remember and Resist.
Till discouragement no longer dwells within.

Just like spending time with momma and sister today, we had a pretty good time just shopping, getting what we want, and getting each other's company. And im so glad i didnt hesistate in asking them out in the first place, its time to initiate.

back to work after a day of sabbath.

2010-06-02T19:04:00.000-07:00

Thankful.
For such wonderful colleagues who are understanding when im down and about.
Liwen, she is such a darling.
Got each of us some cherries, and its just what i needed, Vit C for a stronger immunity.

And then, seeing the pop card i made the other day makes my day a lil more cheery. Well, look at the vibrancy of that.

Thankful.

for the wednesday's rest, off work.

It was a contradiction though, was supposed to rest to recover from the flu.

But NYP opens was on that day as well and i was scheduled for the 3000m race.

So I had a good rest in the day, well i still woke up early and couldnt get back to sleep and off i went for the race in the evening.

Thankful.

Clinched 2 medals, 3rd for 3000m and 2nd for a last minute 800m race.

Praise God, He never fails me.

Though disappointed in the 3k, could have done better but all's well and im contented enough.

Thanks to everyone's encouragement and prayers.

He who never falters lives in our hearts.

2010-05-31T03:06:00.000-07:00

this is my ukulele class! different generations of people from different woks of life,
coming together for the similar passion.
Amazing.
And my teacher is one interesting man, at age 65, standing strong, playing every song, electric guitar, he jams and he is one hearty fella.

i'd cause i am.

2010-05-25T22:17:00.000-07:00

it has been months since i woke up
in the early morning everyday
where the time is fixed and the alarm rings
and i'd start to be on my way
i looked upon the faces of those who probably are going to work
their faces, some fresh, some half asleep
some sullen, some pleasant, some who cant be bothered
most of them seems to be catching up with age
Age refines and defines
i then realised how we all started seening work as
weariness dwells, but we all have to overcome
another day of hell.

i'd sit at the back of the bus, and watch the world go by
the bus moves, and i'd watch the pavements.
of different people and their statuses
and me in my own direction
i'd plug in to my earphones and let my heart arise with the song
wondering if that will ever be the voice
that could clearly illustrates mine.
i'd stare out of the window again
and be lost in my own thoughts
of people ive missed, and life how it all seemed
of friends ive lost, and letting chances slipped by
of dreams that were let go off, and ideals that were struck
of my own stubborness that made me fall
only to be strengthened by God and more

all in all , was my only thought
that all i am, is a tiny pea in a pod.

Something else.

2010-05-25T21:50:00.000-07:00

Im not going to whine about how work has been lately.

Perhaps, you have gotten enough of it, like i had.
Had a talk with my taiwanese colleague over lunch, and her encouragement motivated me a little to take this challenge on.

Celebrated weebee's 20th birthday yesterday night over a cuppa tea after work.

TWG, Ion Orchard, delectable variety of tea leaves, there were hundreds of them to choose from, we were spoilt for choice.
Warm service, Beautiful golden teapots, delicate dining ware, delicious looking pastries, petite gorgeous cakes, and of course we settled for the ever so lovely macarons.
And a teapot each of " Lemon Bush Tea".

She had a sweet tooth.
And the tea complements well with the macarons.

Tried 5 different flavours, Napoleon Tea and Caramel, Earl Grey and Chocolate, Grand Wedding, Rose something and another one that i cant remember.

The place definitely burnt a hole in our pockets but heck, its her birthday anyway, and how often do we actually have the chance to sit in, talk about life and being dream chasers, complain about work and contemplation.

We did a fair share of talking, and listening.
Though it was just the 2nd day of the week, its still a good one to start off with, i guess.

Happy Birthday again pudding!

Alright, i seriously got to find time to catch up with my other buds. I have been so self centered i make no effort to do so.
Weekends, do i even have one?

Work on Tuesday was.

2010-05-24T22:48:00.000-07:00

a struggle.
Yawned a million times.
Awaiting dismissal.
Tea.
Sugar Rush.
The canteen sold childhood treats.

I absoutely disdain.

2010-05-24T20:03:00.000-07:00

I hate it when,
everyone around me is hard at work while im left there with absolutely nothing else to do.

I disdain it when,
the other designers are entrusted with new projects and graphic design,
while im given the minor editing and more CAD drawings to deal with.

In the end, what is the point of me applying for a position as Graphic Designer?
Sad to say, up till this point, i don't feel the least bit of satisfaction when im done with something.
as compared to school and fyp, this is seriously killing me.

I will rather.

2010-05-19T22:50:00.000-07:00

Will rather make and serve coffee right now.
than to be sitting down and staring at the computer screen for 9 hours.

I've been fidgeting in my seat for the past 5 hours.
man, how much i miss CSC spinelli!
and my dear coffee buds.

at the very least, it was all up and going o'er there.

just, where is it?

2010-05-19T22:40:00.000-07:00

I dislike it when im still treated like an intern instead of one of the designers there.
Aren't I working already?
3 months, where is the exposure? where is the experience?

Im tired of seening my fellow colleagues slogging hard when i've got nothing to do, and there is nothing i can do to help when you don't need my help at all.

I cant even render a least bit of help, designers have long worked independently.
And when a pile of workload comes, i'll be left to finish up where you have left off and to edit after edit.

You are paying me.
to work my best, and not to be seen here blogging my best.

2010-05-18T23:59:00.000-07:00

the coffee has turned cold,
yet im still seated here, staring at this empty space.
in front of me, i reached out,
hardly touching these four walls.
im still stubborn,
and i wouldn't move.
not till i break these four walls.

cut some slack.

2010-05-17T23:08:00.000-07:00

When work gets either too rough or too slackened,
we just need a design magazine, oat biscuits, tea, and good music.

And,
If you are reading this,
im sorry i have been so insensitive,being busy wasn't what i intended.
I love you,
you are my best friend and i wouldnt trade anything else for you.
Though we do not meet as often as best friends would, we are still remembered.

i am who i am, with or without you.

2010-05-17T20:50:00.000-07:00

she may hide from time to time,
but she never leaves.
don’t think you can scare her
away completely.
she hides with fists clenched,
waiting
for the cue furiously attack you.
her defenses so entrenched,
you’ll be down before your canonfires.
and silly, self-righteousyou.
you probably think this
is about you, but it’s not.
no, she forgot about you
in her swim to shore.
kicked you back
with the waves, left you to drown.
she doesn’t drag along foolish clowns.

- Samantha Johnson's

2010-05-17T19:10:00.000-07:00

Good luck, now i could surrender and be even more assured of myself now.
We all have to move on, don't we?

I was here, has always been.

2010-05-17T19:01:00.000-07:00

You will notice me
I'll be leavin' my mark,
like initials carved in an old oak tree
you wait and see

maybe I'll write like Twain wrote
maybe I'll paint like Van Gough,
cure the common cold i don't know
but I'm ready to start cuz i know in my heart

I wanna do something that matters
say something different
something that sets the whole world on it's ear
i wanna do somethin better,
with the time i've been given
and i wanna try to touch a few hearts in this life
and leave nothin less that something that says i was here

I will prove you wrong
if you think im all talk, your in for a shock
cuz this streams too strong,
and before too long

maybe i'll compose symphonies
maybe i'll fight for world peace
cuz i know it's my destiny to to leave more that a trace of myself in this place.

I wanna do something that matters
say something different
something that sets the whole world on it's ear
i wanna do somethin better,
with the time i've been given
and i wanna try to touch a few hearts in this life
and leave nothin less that something that says i was here

sharing another.

2010-05-14T01:38:00.000-07:00

in bloom

i live with your secrets in my ears,
they leak to my throat and quench all my fears.
that in years i’ll self-destruct,
left with a mess of exploded heart in my hands.
you let me believe in the light i can’t see,
i promise to always keep you close to me.

- Samantha Johnson

Another beautiful post by Samantha.

In memory of.

2010-05-13T20:28:00.000-07:00

I lost yet another friend again.

My dearest ipod, it has stuck with me for 2 years, through happiness and trials, through cries and laughter, it was gone, like the wind.
My memory is failing me, I couldnt even remember where i misplaced it, could it be in school? the toilet? the walkway? or it was pickpocketed?

So unsure, and all i could blame was not keeping watch over it properly.
Sorry sis, for disappointing you, you've been using it so often now and were best friends with it like i did, and it just had to happen.

I remember buying this with my spinelli's pay, excitedly walking from China Sq all the way to Funan Centre after work just to get it, choosing purple as not many people had it, dragging my entire itunes library into this first mp3 i ever treasured, and i thought it was the best gift i ever pampered myself with.

Now its gone, all gone.
Not just a gadget, its still a companion.

Dear ipod,
wherever you are, i hope you will remember the best friend you had.

2010-05-12T00:52:00.000-07:00

Will you still have faith in me then?

Momma, i love you.

2010-05-09T20:37:00.000-07:00

Alright, the title of this post is indeed very cheesy but i cant help it. Its mother's day and I've just got to declare my undying love for my very noble mum.

She is the greatest woman to have stepped into my life,
brought me up to a fine young lady as i am, moulded my nimble hands and feet, and showered me with everything i need.
God has gave each and every child a precious gift, an earthly mother to make us complete.
Im so thankful for her. So on this very fateful day, i gratefully acknowledge your beautiful existence.
Not that i do not on any other day, but its special this time. We celebrate it.

It has been a hectic week, work work work, OT OT OT.
But well, the thing is ive just got to embrace it, keep it steady for 3 months and things will get better, or at least i hope.

Anyway it was a well, good sunday.
Not so productive though, i started to help design NYP Open's banner only at like 11pm and ended up sleeping at 3am, with distractions in between. the banner file is now 1.41GB, wow awesomely true.

But as a whole, i had a good service, it always is, every week! Just that today i was greatly exalted in front of the Lord, 40 days of faith (group leader training) was something i'd say a challenge, but im looking foward to it as well.

Fellowship, Praise and worship, and did i mentioned Desperation Band is as good as Hillsong's?
love their compositions and yes the guitar was off the hook, hmm Ramen for dinner, and stumbled upon this pretty tasty snack:

and well that is it then for Sunday!

im blogging this in the office and am breaking boundaries, but heck it, its still lunch break.

2010-05-09T20:32:00.001-07:00

the ukulele

2010-05-05T04:08:00.000-07:00

3 short lessons from the 22nd with aunt!
Cant wait:]

daily work.

2010-05-03T22:11:00.000-07:00

this is how we work.

a long table, about 7 of us seated opposite each other with our own space to work at.

Interesting much?

No cubicles, No dividers, just faces and familiarity.

No walkies talkies, no telephones, just voices and laughter.

I kind of like the way designers and whoever is in the room now works.

Behind those barricades, we work together.

And yes ive got absolutely nothing to do and could probably do a drawing a day.

2010-05-02T23:37:00.000-07:00

I believe you are more than enough for me.

Because, its all i need.

2010-05-02T19:36:00.000-07:00

another beautiful post by Samantha Johnson:

the hummingbird hovers above the window sill
while you sway in your rocking chair.
i’ve made you tea with extra tender, love, care,
and honey—just the way you like,
with some brownie bites on the side.
i place it in your lap and sit at your feet.
you stop rocking and my arms coil
around your calf. my head takes a rest.
it’s almost summer and the sun is heatingup,
like our souls, in the mix of wonderand worry.
we bury the mess and show our smiles,
content for a while.

iap round 2?

2010-04-29T17:44:00.000-07:00

Started work yesterday at CityNeon Design Group.

Finally, a full-time job, a graphic designer, okay but i had to do both 2d and 3d projects so its a little of autoCAD, a little of Illustrator & Photoshop and a little of 3d software as well.

It all felt like IAP once again, got reminded of ST Aero, the anticipation for lunch break, the chance to sneak in a wink, the awaiting time to knock off from work, and everything else that spells freedom.

But then again, i brought work upon myself so 3 months is all im gonna bear with, gain experience from, and get the most out of it. Well, so far so good.

got completely nothing to do yesterday morning and this afternoon, and i had to rush some drawings in Illustrator before i left work so did a half an hour of overtime.

Haha, the department head, Elvis was so apologetic about it i was kind of amused.

" Sorry, first day got you so stressed up:"

Well, it is not the first time its happening anyway, trust me, school was worst.

Sigh, im missing school.

Cant wait for training, And i guess my ear is finally better now, at least i can hear slight whispers now. Wait for me, clear blue waters, i will be back and going.