Coming Clean.

In between

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Sun, 13 Dec 2009 17:43:00 +0000

It all happens in the state of your mind,
when all things seem unclear
To rise up, stand and glorify
its how we falter , how we fear

You move a step foward
unable to walk on
you look back again
hesistant and torn

Between these two worlds
you are right in between
Within these close walls
you don't hear a thing.

Sometimes, all we need is some drastic change.

Sunday Dinner

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Sun, 13 Dec 2009 17:24:00 +0000

It had been quite awhile since i last had Sunday dinner with my family.
So this time , we finally had one, to celebrate Jo's birthday in advance as well.
Happy 17th jo, grow with age and grow in the Lord :]

Jap feast at kallang leisure park:

yes her present from mum!

Three families, One destination.

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Wed, 02 Dec 2009 15:41:00 +0000

So, our family getaway this end of year is to Kota Kinabalu, the heart of Sabah.
And its not only our family of 4 this time but including my aunt's family and uncle john's.
12 in all.

beautiful sights along the way as usual, Mount kinabalu, nature parks, canopy walks, hot springs , seafood and beaches, laid-back. Time is in our hands.

the only thing about the whole trip is me still thinking bout studio and firmenich projects, the burdens are just bugging me. besides that, i was trying to have fun.

Anyway, pictures of relation here:

Departure, Day one, 26th nov 1015am
and yes, we flew there, because it takes bout 14 hours to get to KK by coach, so we flew there in 2 hours. convenient and the most important thing is, i get onboard a flight again.

Welcome to Kota Kinabalu!

Hotel we are residing in:

Aunts and Cousins.

the hotel room was pretty chic, shared it with sis.

thanks jo for that.toilet ambassadors.

yes there is disney channel!

we headed to the hypermall that was linked to our hotel for lunch.

and then we headed to the arcade, the kids seemed to love it there!

i had a wild time as well, just testing out my driving skills with daytona and motorbike races.

bbhoops got us going.

my cousin is freaking tall, he is 14 and he is already bout 170 or taller. and the little one is his sister.

Day 2, 0730

Morning skies as i drew the curtains.

The first signs of daylight long gone,

but the rays shone beyond the horizon, bringing forth the clouds.

Incredible sight.

Hearty breakfast, Hot tea.

Wisp of smoke, Warmth with every sip.

there we saw the wonder, Mount Kinabalu.

Had always wanted to scale that mountain, lets wait and see.

the real hot spring water from underneath.

Notice the smoke? its hot enough to boil eggs and cook maggie.

jo and me:]

mum, jo and dad !

and then we got to soak our legs in already diluted hot spring water!

the beautiful mothers who are probably more active in me in facebook .

the men! and jianheng at the back learning how to be like them.

Seafood at this restaurant in the heart of KK for 2 nights for dinner.

Cheap, good and fresh.

yes, it was way too fresh to this extent.

i was grossed out by these creatures in bottles. Fascinated but grossified.

How did they ever grow inside!

Day 3 1030am some beach near the airport. say hello to our little hermit crabby friend.

and say hello to my little cousin, who loves the beach as much as i do.

us and her!

mum being our model or was she just stoning and smiling to herself? :D

Last day before we head towards to the airport, 0930

Sunday market at KK

and off to KK Airport!

Appreciated the trip.

Thanks to the parents who made this possible. it lift things off my mind for a while.

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Sun, 22 Nov 2009 14:28:00 +0000

Thank God for his healing, thanks for your prayers, thanks to everyone who had faith in me,
thanks for all the encouragement, thanks to giebert for believing and honoring me as your competition partner, thanks to kevin for that Fastum gel, it worked! and thanks to jerome for that very very painful yet effective calf massage.

Because, and for the sake of you guys, i earned this.

And yes, we got in 1st place for team relay.
Grace did herself and our team proud , getting 3rd for individual, im so happy for her! and Clarissa got in 1st , she is a natural excellent runner.
Philip got in 1st individual and Eugene 2nd. Awesome climbing i guess?
More long d runners rising up now, gee im glad:]

Last climb n run i could participate before i leave,
Last year to run it all before i leave.

One race down, many more races to come.

Oh my legs.

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 16:08:00 +0000

Argh i feel so _____up.

Climb and run this saturday and my leg muscles, calves , hamstrings whatever is aching like shit.
Oh, great just when i was about to run/climb my best to glorify ourselves as a team.

Please recover, legs. I need you to get me a mile further!

Welcome Declaration

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 14:31:00 +0000

yay our class is gonna be more crowded now with elaine, phoebe, yvonne and sujun back from Suzhou!

Welcome back ladies! :]

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 09:20:00 +0000

Im just practically wasting time in Studio when im supposed to render more furnitures of the Firmenich's office area.

Presentation next tues, and there is still the ppt and pboards on going to complete.

Gotta render at least a few more before i head down to training.
im crossing my fingers hoping its not speed workout again today.

I miss.

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 15:18:00 +0000

Had training today, the stadium was dark as the night starts falling.
The lights were faulty i guess, we were completing our last 200m before the sky gets really dark, especially after a short period of rain.

I was looking back at the track before i head down to the showers when i really felt nostalgic.
I didnt felt proud nor satisfied that ive completed Coach's workout today, when i normally would skip one or two sets, in fact, i felt the footprints i left in track, the bonds ive forged and everything else that comes along with it, are fading as every training swept by.

Im graduating next feb, im leaving the track not as NYP's athlete but just an individual standing on my own.

Was blog hopping, read Meiyi's blog and my heart surged with a sense of amazement about how sincere and compassionate she can be.
She will soar high as a nurse, and with her sincerity that she takes note of in her everyday life makes me feel proud of her.

I miss her, and Wanwen.

Hoping that ive got time to meet up, run and do some shopping with them soon.

Sorry that i havent got time to go shopping with you yet Meiyi, join us for a jog soon yea!

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Mon, 02 Nov 2009 17:50:00 +0000

My blog is so uninteresting , i think no one really reads it.

On a random note, i feel like heading to Bintan to caress myself in the sea breeze! Gah, projects are such bitches.

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 07:40:00 +0000

For once, ive got gorgeous eyes all thanks to ct and her amazing photoshop skills.

Helo To Melaka.

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Wed, 14 Oct 2009 05:25:00 +0000

Firstly, im pleased to say that i actually kept a travel journal to record down the slightly more happening details of the trip. Actually nothing much happened luh just the same stuff but am glad to see Grandmere and Mum enjoying themselves.
That was the whole purpose after all!
Everything in Melaka was still freshly familiar , since i just went there with my classmates bout half a year ago. So yeah, this is how it goes.

Day One, 11th Oct.
Purpose of visit: Spend time with grandmere's relatives and just a short getaway @ 0835 , we headed off in the coach, love the fact that it was a double decker and that im sitting alone. F.Y.I, im not being emo.
Sitting by the window, face basking in the sun, pluggin' in to the ipod, deep contemplation, its the start of a retreat.

@0900 was breathless watching 'Drag Me To Hell' on the TV in the coach. Horrifying Disturbing movie that still kept me seemingly engrossed in it.

@1100 Rest stop, Yong Peng.
Toilet, i need to pee.
Cupcorn and Tea Egg as a snack.

@ 1510 Hotel Equatorial, Melaka Room 810
Arrived destination.

Facing a pretty scenic view from up here in our room, we've a small balcony overlooking the heart of Melaka. Because we are located at the central, its highly accessible!

Grandmere's relatives gonna pick us up in an hour's time.

Grand aunt and Grandmere hugging tight.

@ 2155 Back to the hotel

After a relatively long day out hanging out at Jonker Street with Grandmere's relatives, we're back, tired and sweaty. Grandaunt's grandson drove us to a Portugese Restaurant for an early dinner. Had some recommended dishes which were spicy , loved the Assam Fish and Kangkong!

It was appetitising in a way or so. Grandaunt's family was very very hospitable. They brought us ard to visit 2 of their houses and then we went on to Jonker walk. Managed to catch a glimpse of all the excitement and nightlife.

That's it for Day 1 then, gotta recharge.

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Day Two, 12th Oct.

@0750 Hotel Room

Preparing ourselves to head downstairs for the buffet breakfast provided, yum.

@0850 back in room

Breakfast was awesome, love the cereals, there are so many varieties! We had all-american with eggs, pastries etc, and chinese congee. Am glad Grandmere loves it!

@1545 Back to room after a long day

After breakfast, we had a guided tour to bring us to Tan Kim Hock for some local produce shopping. Thereafter we went to the Peranakan Museum, yes, again, it was my 2nd time there but at least i could relate it to my grandmere. Afterwards, our tour guide cum driver brought us to a homemade Nyonya Kueh house. Was quite fascinated with what i saw! A few ahmas with their filipino maids i supposed, using their hands to make each and every one of the kuehs.

Treated both grandmere and mum for lunch at a Chicken Rice Balls store along Jonker.

The chicken rice came in cute little rice balls, almost bite size.

Came back with a few shopping done. However, was only disappointed i haven't managed to find a guitar shop in the area. Darn.

Anyway , got back from a swim in the hotel with Mum and we are gonna head out to find "City Music" .

Im determined to get a Ac guitar luh!

@ 1750 back again

OMG YAY YAY, i finally got my much desired Ac guitar!

12 RM wasnt wasted on the cab fare. Thanks to mum for accompanying me:D

I got the guitar at such a good deal, it was a total steal.

anyway we are looking foward for a Peranakan dinner feast provided in the hotel later.

@ 2159 hotel room

Shopping done, Peranakan feast was fab

Seri Nyonya provided an array of peranakan dishes like the all famous Ayam Pongteh, Assam Fish, Belachan chilli, Nyonya chap chye and i finally tried the chendol!

that wraps it all up for Day 2.

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Day Three , 13th oct and our last day.

Relatives brought us for Bak Ku Teh for brunch.

Soup was tantalising but still i cant appreciate Bak Ku Teh .

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Well, and that was all for our 3 days in Melaka. I still had other photos of places we have visited but im lazy to post em all up ald. So here we go, it was an eye opener for them i hoped!

P/S: I think my photography did improved. Cam not wasted. Yay me, or not?

Retreat or not?

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Sat, 10 Oct 2009 16:51:00 +0000

off to Malacca tomorrow morning.
Grandmere wants to visit relatives, me and mum just want to do some shopping plus accompanying Grandmere.

Back on Tuesday 13th oct with a less burdenised self i hope.

When all i really want to do is.

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 17:28:00 +0000

Life is too short to waste. Ah i want very much to go into these!
I need time, i need motivation, i need dollars and cents, i need patience, i need everything that takes to get me further.

omg DJ DJ DJ,im amazed with mixers and amplifiers.

Amidst the seriousness.

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Sun, 04 Oct 2009 14:28:00 +0000

Alright, so just as life was heading for the downturn, yesterday night lift it up a little.
Thankful for that, at least i wasn't feeling so lifeless.

Spinelli's store outing with my awesome colleagues at Minds Cafe, at the one opp Peace Centre.
Bobby Joe booked a table for all of us at 11pm so we got on to play till 2am or so.
We had a blasting wild time, playing taboo, Repeat pete and all sorts of games that requires a zest of energy, lots of hearty laughter, courage for all that embarrasing actions and humor!

And i love it all, including the company of course. its one of the rare times where you get to see everyone's other side.

Oh, me and eva went for a drink with Shimin at Mr Bean's Cafe as well which was just opp Minds'. Got a bottle of white wine and i got literally persuaded by Shimin to drink at least one and a half glasses of it. Kinda sweet and a tad sour for alcohol but still, i personally do not appreciate wine at all. Me and eva washed it down with gulps of iced water.

Met up with some of our prev spinelli friends as well , they had some rounds of drinks at Alps bar and then we headed on to Minds' by 11pm.

Photos will definitely be up once i get hold of those. Await.

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Thu, 01 Oct 2009 17:04:00 +0000

goodness gracious, i cant get to sleep yet.
the 12 hours i slept through last night was a boost.

Right now, after working for like 9 hours, im still wide awake.
Still chewing on gum, listening to Taylor Swift's, figuring out some guitar chords, socialising on msn and still thinking bout how life still sucks.

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Thu, 01 Oct 2009 14:27:00 +0000

Hi people, please be nice and score this design for me at Common Totes!
Your score is greatly appreciated:]

Despondent.

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Sun, 27 Sep 2009 10:15:00 +0000

Ive been feeling so lousy about myself lately.
Everything is just not going the way it should be.

Im not trying to be yet another emo kid, but frankly speaking, up to this point, i still breathe in the air of solitude, walk in the footsteps of a haunting silence, people are still revolving around me but im still unable to move.
Gee, talk about having a life.

Just whats going wrong?

My self esteem is sinking, and its always ending up in self pity
My confidence is faltering, but it has never been its optimum,
no one truly understands how i perceive things because they look at it differently,
Everyone is having a life they live it up but me,
Im drifting from God when i never was supposed to,
I neglected running and my fitness level is back to square one,
IVP is coming and im feeling so unfit,
ive been having odd dreams that i could interpret
someone stole the bicycle i bought together with wb
i work and work like there is no tommorow
im still lingering in the past
i feel dejected.

When everything is back to zero point, there is nothing you can turn to.

Sometimes, we realised we are alone.

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Tue, 22 Sep 2009 15:34:00 +0000

Today, just like any other day, its just me and the sound of my footsteps.

I walked up steadily this winding uphill slope everyday home. Every night as i walked up, the overhead lamp would shine down upon me, casting its glow on my silhouette, i would watch my shadows, hear my breathing, quicken my pace, determined to reach home as soon as possible.

Some nights are different. I would take time to slow down, contemplate, and remember how small i really am in this world.

Im nobody worth remembering, but my value encompasses how much im worth.

I asked myself while i strolled up tonight, " Do you have a life? Why are you standing here alone again?"

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Fri, 18 Sep 2009 14:26:00 +0000

Finally, IAP has come to an end.
We are freed.

Looking back, i still feel useless.
Whatever i did what i ought to do or not, ive still got no direction.

but in any other case, goodbye to STAero FOREVER.

Forget yourselves long enough to lend a helping hand.

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 14:48:00 +0000

This is what it means to 'lose your life'- forgetting yourself in service to others.
When was the last time you emptied yourself for someone else's benefit?
It's only when we forget ourselves that we do the things that deserve to be remembered.

Often enough, a lot of our service is self-serving.

So, Ask yourself this, 'Am i usually more concerned about being served or finding ways to serve others?'

Coffee anyone?

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Thu, 10 Sep 2009 15:00:00 +0000

Should have posted this beautiful picture of the Starbucks Tumbler Carling and Ken got for me on my birthday a month ago but blogger failed me.

So this time since Blogger is working again,i would like to say how authentic this tumbler is!
Thanks a mil guys!

One week to end of IAP, anticipating.

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Mon, 07 Sep 2009 15:56:00 +0000

Ah im losing myself.

Woke up at the wrong side of bed this freaking Monday Morning. No, actually i didn't really even sleep at all.
Tried to sleep at 0200 only to wake up at 0500 and i could not go back to sleep.

The wierd thing about my sleeping habits now is, i tend to sleep in the day, though im really really worn out in the night.
Insomia? Night Owl? Whatever you call it, it still sucks.

Sleeping at work is pretty energising though.
In total, i can sleep up to one hour or so. Amazing eh, ive yet to get caught. At least not after lunch!

Sigh, ive been telling myself this, Just 8 more days, and it will be over. Self consolation just got the better outta me.

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 14:11:00 +0000

You don't know how much i miss this lot of you.

I recalled the good old times in Year One while stoning at work today, and realised how fond those memories were etched in me.

The innocent carefree us, we didn't care a heck of how this world was turning into because we had no worries, no burdens then. We just lived everyday like it is in school because the only thing we looked foward to was having each other's company.

Now we realised a different thing, and go on separate ways, but some things just have to stay.

P/S: Happy Ramadan Month phat and ct!

Anticipating the end.

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Tue, 01 Sep 2009 13:46:00 +0000

Hang in there guys, just two more weeks, just two more.
And we will be freed.

TCS Flag Day

noreply@blogger.com (Pearlyn K) — Sun, 30 Aug 2009 14:36:00 +0000

What an experience!
Ever since graduating from Secondary School, ive not been doing Flag Day until today, where we volunteered for FCBC to do the good of mankind for Touch Community.

Was greatly encouraged by the many volunteers out there doing Flag day as well, be it old or young, they were all seemingly happy to be serving and giving! The same goes for my cell, we had fun for that 2 hours, yeah our shift starting from 1 to 3pm at Cityhall Area.

So to those who were around that area and had kindly donated to any of these TCS tin cans,
I thank you very very much indeed.

So me and Yanglin were paired up together, collected our tin cans from Sing Ai and other cell leaders at Raffles City's Starbucks and we walked on to Esplanade and then to Marina Sq connection area from Citilink and stood at the top of the escalator for an hour, flagging for donations.
Some were very obliged to donate, some not very keen, some dont even bother, some hesistated but there were some who were really sincere in putting their coins inside our cans.
It was all sunny and sweaty but the thought of getting my can filled up to half and seening the public donate wholeheartedly kept me going:]

A toast to the success of TCS Flag Day! Pastor Khong told us today at Service that we managed to raise up to the amount that we aimed for:D